The odds are good, but the goods are odd

Soulless

2011-09-12T16:03:00.000+10:00

(Guitar INTRO)
(Drums BEGIN)
(Bass and Piano BEGIN)
(Guitar SOLO)

(Instrumental Section 2 minutes)

(Drums Stop)

(Bass SOLO)
(Guitar SOLO)
(Drums BEGIN)

In the coldest mornings
I wait alone for your warmth
Something that I seek in the flame that is burning
Somewhere but here

(Guitar SOLO)

Eluding devotion of love
Aimless in the fog
Deaf under the rain
In sadness I crumble

(Bass SOLO)

(Instrumental section 2 minutes)

(Guitar SOLO)

She said, "I know"
And, soulless I stood in my own ashes

To the World she spoke
But, he understood
He listened, he felt, no expectations
And, he understood

In the darkness we walk
Hope lights the way
Courage takes the steps
Faith binds our souls

Now, I think it is time
I bid you farewell

(All instruments stop except Guitar)

This I do just for you

Image by Ajey Padival

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2011 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

They

2011-09-10T09:53:00.000+10:00

(Drum SOLO)

These words leak from my heart to the pavement
Take it as my feelings, or just a statement
The things you do, I don’t do the same
So, before you do what you do
Keep your hands clean

(Pain BEGINS)

The cold reality
Is often dismissed
Ease of mind relies on your imagination

Believe in my words, not others
I can bring a better day
And, help you from crumbling

(Bass BEGINS)

Fantasies are palaces of sand
They fill empty hours in life
And, they, they listen and say they things they have not felt

The star says a different tale
Feelings, they know not
Yet, they speak

Tomorrow is a day
A chance to live your dream
Today is a possibility
To live your dream

In love with a stranger
Unaware of the danger
I pour my heart out

But, in these moments
I ask myself
Did I let her see the stranger in me?

(Piano SOLO)

He is first to be there around
When hands turns to claws
You will see the flaws
And

Me.
(Instrumentals – 4 minutes)

(VOICE OVER)
“Judge Not, That Ye Be Not Judged”

(Strings BEGIN)

So, I say
I will never stop running
Running
Running
Running
Running
After my dreams
Chase away my screams

I will never, ever
Stop running
Without a map
Without a doubt
I know these things
Better than the ones who judge me

(Choir AH)

This is the time
To hold her hands
And, find out about me
The stranger in me

I entered through the door
The door I cannot remember
I will leave happily
Through the window

(Guitar BEGINS)

And, there the sun shines
The faces in the mirror
Will be revealed to you
If only, you’d trust him

(Bass EXTRO)

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2011 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by SNIK

Striking Matches

2011-08-11T08:58:00.000+10:00

Today is one of those days I went for a long walk by myself. I wanted to atleast recollect if not relive the moments I had spent with this special person. This special one is someone I remember every time I strike matches as he was the one who taught me how to light them.

If you truly someone, you miss their presence almost every moment of your day. Today, I miss my dad a lot. I miss "his warmth, his love, his wisdom, his direction, his advise and his optimism".

My dad always wishes the best for everyone. There have been certain people whose association with my dad has bothered me. But, my dad who has always had an eye on the greater good has always taught me to be patient and have faith in people, in general.

There are often times when I can come across as a wishful thinker. I am a kind of person who ends up reasoning peoples' actions with positive justifications. I very well realize that this is not always ideal. I think I am a dreamer. If I don't have anything good to say about someone, I feel the urge to get to know them better. I can be unrealistically optimistic at times. Although not a good characteristic, some may say, I think it leaves me with no bitter aftertaste about anyone.

I think it does not matter how my father is, it is how I remember him that matters. He does not teach me how to live, but lives the right life and lets me watch him. And, weirdly I realize that whenever my dad has given me anything, we've both laughed and enjoyed it, and when I give him anything, we both isolate ourselves to cry.

In every childhood memory

2011-07-29T17:10:00.000+10:00

(Piano INTRO)

(Strings BEGIN)

(All Instruments BEGIN)

The innocence lost

In the dangerous playground

With bright colours and

Swings that take you higher

You see what you saw

But, you merrily go around

You hop and scotch

As you swing between friendly dangers

And, then my sweet baby

You slid down into the arms of the stranger

(Guitar SOLO)

A smile that made my life

That smile that loved the breeze

You smiled as you smelt the sweet rain falling

Your mischievous laughter

That twinkle in your eyes

As you ran towards me

And held me like you'd never leave me ever

(CHORUS)

So, I say to all

In every childhood memory

There is a garden

With blushing flowers

The stream that likes to be teased

The butterfly you want to chase

In every childhood memory

There is always a garden

With trees that shadow you

And, birds that sing for you

I am here for you

And, I shall be forever

(All Instruments BREAK)

(Piano SOLO)

In ever childhood memory

There is always a garden

(All instruments START)

All I see now is

An empty swing that sways

By the winds' ghostly arms

(Background Vocals)

Away from me

I have counted to 10

And, I have looked for you for days

Remember, I am seeking

It's time you stop hiding

Where are you?

(All Instruments STOP)

COP - "911 How can I help you?

Man - Ah, man! Ah, you need to get here right away. Man!

COP - Please state your emergency

Man - F*** man! You need to get here right now! There is a body here man!

COP - Calm down sir! Give me your address. Sir, calm down! Can you identify the body?

Man - It is girl man! May be around 4 years old...

Photo byAnnie Cameron

Waking up

2011-07-21T14:35:00.001+10:00

Today, I miss my dad a lot. I miss his warmth, his love, his wisdom, his direction, his advise and his optimism. He taught me to love Mother Nature and to learn from what she has to offer. This poem is a tribute to Mother Nature and my dad. Please keep him in your prayers so that he can overcome his stressful time.

The calmness of the moonlight

The happiness from the sunlight

That lonely cloud that your eyes seek

The mild breeze that carry the words you speak

How was the dream?

How did you find your dream?

When you feel it, do tell me

How was the dream?

How did you find your dream?

Tell me, my love, my precious

Tell me how you feel

The waves of fragrances

Depart the healing lavenders

The waves of fragrances

Depart the consoling lavenders

Like the innocence in butterflies

They flutter away to spread smiles

From the bud rises a flower

That brings a timeless smile on her face

How was the dream?

How did you find your dream?

Tell me, my love, my precious

Tell me how you feel

Hey you!

You who are in my heart

For not just mine, and not just yours, but our sake

Don't be a stranger

Grey days are familiar to the English rose

Still, the slightest gentle drizzle makes her smile

The gold and crimson iris, and Mother Mary blooms

The fishermen's children with the rusty tin cans

The autumn breeze rustling through the leaves, a haunting melody

The exuberant chorus, the robins sing boldly

Grasshoppers play with the time signatures

The petals drift with the singers' voice

And, the snow falls silently

Yet, there is music in every home

Sound of the carols

You are the melody in the notes

You are the muse of the painter

You are the poetry in the song

You are the keystone of my expression

You are either a fairy from the sky

Or you are an illusionist from a far land

How was the dream?

How did you find your dream?

Tell me, my love, my precious

Write to me how you feel

The calmness of the moonlight

The energy from the sunlight

That lonely cloud that your eyes seek

The mild breeze that carry the words you speak

How was the dream?

How did you find your dream?

Tell me, my love, my precious

Express what you feel

Photo by Ajey Padival

Starless Sky

2011-07-07T18:27:00.000+10:00

(Piano INTRO)

(SFX - Rain)

With a flask of wine

I lie here down below

The light of the good works shine

As the winds of tribulations blow

(Bass + Violins BEGIN)

(Drums BEGIN)

Golden reflection through my eyes

And, I stare at the sundown

The artist knew the faces

They were all his own

All he does...

(Drums BREAK)

All he does is stare at the sky

The icy blue sky turns to grey

All he does is stare at the starless sky

He can't do much

So he holds the book closeby

(Drums RESUME)

(Guitar SOLO)

Bidding goodbye to his old friend

The one that we call charity

But, he leaved behind

A legacy to remember

The home made of bricks

And, an old tuned guitar

He teaches her tricks

With a deck of cards

With the flame burning inside

The rage charges through

She stood beside me

And, the time just flew

A rose on her birthday

A kiss to make her day

A bouquet full of memories

She leaves behind and moves on

So, now,

All he does...

(Drums BREAK)

All he does is stare at the sky

The icy blue sky turns to grey

All he does is stare at the starless sky

He can't do much

So he holds the book closeby

(Drums RESUME)

And, all he does

Is paint all his memories down

She might have passed on

But, in his heart she is forever alive

(Guitar SOLO)

She's not dead, he says

Just moved on, he says

I wish to see her again, he says

I will see her again, he says

No matter the starless sky

He loves her

And will forever

A Secret

2011-06-08T06:49:00.000+10:00

(Guitar INTRO)

(Bass and Strings BEGIN)

(Percussion BEGINS)

(Guitar SOLO)

(Drums BEGIN)

(Instrumentals - 5 minutes)

(Choir – AH)

Well

(Guitar SOLO)

(Guitar + Keyboard DUAL – 2 minutes)

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass SOLO)

Ancient gardener

Glassy eyes, warm breath

Deep insight

Chirping robins

Anchored ships, warm breath

Swinging branches

(Drums BEGIN)

Bird tracks

In the fresh snow

Sailing on maple leaves

A delicate breeze

Teases a still pond

Blushing with delicate ripples

You don’t drown in the river you’ve fallen into

But, if you stay still, you’ll never rise again

(Guitar SOLO)

Profound thoughts

Sunrays during winter

Least noise made

Changing forever

It takes as it gives

Water turns to sky

In the middle of the river

With mist on the paddle

I hear the silence

Peace I’ve felt before

Only with you

(SCALE CHANGE)

As you know what I’ve been meaning to say

You’re feeling the way I’m feeling

(Drums BREAK)

(Primary SCALE GAINED)

(Drums BEGIN)

(STRINGS SOLO)

(Guitar SOLO)

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass SOLO)

(Bass BREAK)

(Strings BREAK)

What I am to you

Is only known to you

Imprisoned inside of me

Is a secret that reveals

How much you mean to me

I still believe...

I will always...

Believe that I know

That I can

(Drums BEGIN)

(Strings BEGIN)

(Guitar SOLO EXTRO)

Inner Turmoil

2011-05-21T08:19:00.001+10:00

(All Instruments Begin)
(No Drums throughout)

Falling from clouds over the mountains

Feeling the flight go down

Seeing the moments pass right through me

Living a life in dust

I’m bleeding blood in this love, but I’m living

Changing the shape of my heart

Rejection was an unseen reflection

Left with no answers, but I stay

(MONOLOGUES SPOKEN)

“He’ll never get close to anyone

He is one of those who feel bad when the world is not where he wants it to be

He is hopeless

You should have let gone of him when you had a chance

That was an easy choice

He is a disgrace to the family

You know nothing about life

All he brings is shame

He does not feel emotions, is he an animal?

You will be alone

You will not have anything to look forward to

He will not have any memories to share

He should have died

Why are you alive?

You expect a lot

What’s with the sadness in your eyes?

Your eyes say something else... your lips say different

Was he breathing when you held him?

What did you see? Tell us... what did you see?

Are you the victim here?

Are you all right?

Give some respect man! He is a human being!

How could they... how could they kill him?

He doesn’t give up... just give up

You are a difficult person

You can never love

You are a stone”

Every man has an angel come unto him

Learning from her reflections

He found her and his self again

Time to turn the page

I never thought this would end

This is not how I wanted it to end

And, nothing lasts forever

(MONOLOGUES SPOKEN)

“You’re a wise man

You’re a beautiful person

Can I hug you?

You know, I cannot see you like this

You are worse than before

No, I am better being miserable

Why do you care so much?

I feel your pain, please let me hug you

Am I a good or a bad person?

You are a selfless lover

People should listen to you when you tell them to

Did I do anything wrong?

Forget me like your worst nightmare

I now know I can fall in love

You look happy... yes, you look happy now... be like this

I now know I can never fall in love again

It’s not that I cannot trust anyone... it is just that the one I trusted left me

Every rose has a thorn

He is my son

You touch him, and you will regret you did

Because I really loved her, do you understand?

Unspoken words still hanging in the air

I am freeing her because I care for her

He never revealed until recently

Now, I am back to what I was

Familiar place... I know everything here

Without meeting, and talking, this will go nowhere

You at least talk... I have no one to talk to

I am frozen in time because I want to be frozen here

Do you really want this to work? I know I do

I am glad she is happy

Promise me just this much... when I come back home... simply smile!

Nothing else I ask from you

Stay away... stay way away from me... people who get close to me tend to get hurt

Why do you say that?

Please don’t say that

Don’t hurt yourself like this

Was this too good to be true?”

(Percussion SOLO)
(MONOLOGUES SPOKEN)

“Facing the reality

I am left with myself now, to talk to, to comfort

These feelings I cannot peel off so that I can heal

I love pricking my own wounds... who knows... something may be revealed

I may get my answers

Looking forward to this Sunday

When you have missed something, you have gained something

When you have gained something, you have missed something

Sadness I am comfortable with... I know sadness well... I can deal with it

You’ve got to try son

Pray about it brother

I cannot tell you how I feel brother

It aches... it aches badly... and I am left with no one again brother

Wondering why it hurts... I am used to this situation... I have friends

At the same time, I feel proud and happy for I have loved

I have loved for the right reasons”

(Man Speaking)

“Dry heat

This dry heat is killing me

You say anything about her, and you will regret you did

I made something for someone... but was not acknowledged of it...

Guess I have to deal with this

I love my mom

I miss your warmth

I miss talking to you

You were all I had

I know I can have someone else

But, what if I said, I want no one else”

(Instruments Stop)
(Piano SOLO)

(All Instruments BEGIN)

“It is 9’O Clock and the doors are closed

The windows are closed

The walls are closing in

Finding a place to sleep in my own home”

“There’s no one to take my blame”

I will never feel the same

So, thanks for giving me the best of times

I am already what you want me to be

My aims wander with no one to claim

My soul I won’t give up for my goal

(Guitar SOLO)

“I’ll never be open again

I’ll never be open again”

I can never be open again

This life I defend, I pretend

“I’ll never be open again”

A broken dream I’m left to amend

I’m broken so I am open

Painting by Anthony

Behind the doors

2011-04-25T09:20:00.000+10:00

(Piano BEGINS)

(ALL INSTRUMENTS)

In terms of conquered ground

Reality it surrounds

Like a venom that spreads wide

Eases into my burning eyes

Oooohhhhhhh!

Living by the fame of his name

He thinks life is just a game

With fortunes that reap

Adultery that creeps

Insanity that reaks

It spreads uncontrollably!

Noooooooooo!

Sandpapering the rust

Behind the doors

Fermented illusions cover reality

And my dreams are a part of your scheme

This world is at a place

On the edge of love

All your realities become a lie

CHORUS

There is rust behind the doors

Rust behind the doors

The truth has now turned sour

(Guitar SOLO)

Let one man have just one role

Don't try

Just be yourself

I float on the smoke

In your lies, I soak

When you grin, I choke

I become a part of the fire that has risen

To you, I was the one chosen

And, now we dance on the bridge

That we burn with our creed

(Instrumentals - 2 minutes)

Sandpapering the rust

Behind the doors

Fermented illusions cover reality

And my dreams are a part of your scheme

This world is at a place

On the edge of love

All your realities become a lie

My eyes shudder at the hope for another chance

The rust has found its home

I clean the nail of distained trust

A curse, I wonder

Or, a blessing in disguise

There is rust behind the doors

Rust behind the doors

The truth has now turned sour

Sandpapering the rust

Behind the doors

Fermented illusions cover reality

And my dreams are a part of your scheme

This world is at a place

On the edge of love

All your realities become a lie

(FADE OUT)

First look at the Temple

2011-02-26T17:04:00.002+10:00

Faces of people I never knew came to my mind as a vision. Rather than being shocked and scared of it, I was feeling pleased and humbled and a sensation that is far too overwhelming to be expressed by words. I sat with my eyes closed as the rightful priesthood holders confirmed the baptisms of people who are no longer among us. I prayed for them and felt good that I was doing something that could yield goodness not alone in my and my family's life but in the lives of the ones I was doing this for.

Just before I went onto doing this auspicious and righteous ordinance I was told that my role here was like the Savior himself. I was left in awe. But, that was just the beginning.

Bearing my testimony of my understanding of the Gospel that began with Annie, will continue with no one but her and shall continue forever with her by my side has appealed to many people both young and old. And, I take pride in moving many hearts. I still receive best wishes from people in form of their testimony and the feelings that I evoked in them as I spoke about nothing but the truth - my understanding and faith in the Gospel and my undying love for Annie and my family and friends.

But, today was a different day altogether. I woke up with a mission in mind. I woke up like how a soldier would wake up with the enthusiasm and determination to defend his countrymen. Although disheartened with my inability to speak to my dearest darling Annie, I left to the temple.

After I went in and performed the ordinances that I have been blessed to do, I pondered about the opportunities we get in this world to help someone. People assume and get defeated when they try and fail to deliver results in their attempt to help someone. See it with a positive light! You have attempted to help someone and that alone is enough for you to be contented and respected. Remind yourself that the Savior recognises it.

Upon finishing my list of baptisms that I was blessed to do, I walked out of the water and ran straight into a man whose words has still left me with the chills and in awe. Although my right ear was still blocked with some water, I could hear him talk to me in his temple-voice - "Brother Padival, I hear this is your first time here. I also hear that you have only been a member since 2 months! Marvelous my son! I am proud of you. It is not just I but all of us serving in the temple that feel blessed to be in your company and see you understand and embrace the Gospel and be worthy of the Priesthood. My son! I am proud of you!" With tears almost departing from my eyes, and memories of my parents whom I have not seen since more than a year now, I asked him more about the temple. More people gathered around me, and he said to me, "Brother Padival, I can feel you have a strong testimony. AH! I am very proud of you my son. I can feel the Spirit very closely!" And, then he touched my face with his palm, wiped away the water from my brow, held my face in his palms and kissed me on my forehead.

All I can say is how humble a few people are that they refer to "working" as "serving". Sure, they love what they are doing. I feel good that without knowing much about the Gospel, honesty, humbleness, meekness, bearing an open-heart, being forgiving, having faith and being consistent is alone enough to appeal to people.

When I entered the temple, I thought I would leave by feeling small and illiterate among others who know more. But, I left feeling as important as others as I am His son, and feeling so much contented with myself that I am blessed to have the Gospel in my life, righteous parents, an unconditionally loving fiance', caring brothers like Guy, Brent, Sean, James and Gerry who have always been there in my worst times to uplift me and make me feel better. They have been my role models constantly showing me that there is always a way back and that they will constantly be there to help me remain as right as possible.

While my parents have always taught me to abide by the three magic words - sorry, thank you and please, my sweetheart Annie has taught me the meaning of hope and the existence of a silver-lining. She has confirmed to me how if I continue to keep my faith, I will see an opportunity to becoming happy. I love you honey!

Guy has confirmed to me that no matter how the past is filled with ups and downs you need not be an ideal outcome of it. You can create your own destiny. Guy helped me with my ill-thoughts and disbeliefs. He listened to me and made sure that he gave the right advice by emotionally understanding the depth of the puddle I was in rather than shooting rational one-liners.You are my best-man!!!

Brent has confirmed to me that there is the One up there who is always forgiving and will always show a way. All I have to do is ask. He has been a role-model for me and inspiring me to not fear to voice my opinion when it came to sensitive subjects such as religion. I had forsaken it for personal reasons.

Sean, who understood and sympathised on some of the aspects that I had problems with and never gave up on me and helped me such that I could better understand and follow the Gospel. And, yes, for my first Christmas dinner too! Sean, Erin and Patty, you rock!!!

James, for his intellectual discussions that sped up my understanding of the Gospel.

And, Gerry who could relate to my issues of understanding and helped me by sharing his viewpoints and tactics.

If you need something, and you ask of it with the right intent you shall receive it. But, I would also like to point out that you need to remind yourself that it will happen in due time. So, keep the faith and have the patience.

Today has only made my testimony all the more stronger. And, I am pleased with it. I am proud to be a member of the Church as it has made me experience joy, meet my soul-mate and live with her forever and a hope to being completely righteous.

Fight against childhood sexual abuse

2011-02-22T09:18:00.000+10:00

"I'm raising money this week for one of my girls that is moving into assisted accommodation. she's possibly one of the worst childhood sexual abuse cases i've come across and i'm keen to make her living environs, wardrobe and hygiene essentials etc as lovely and as comfortable as possible. anyway, i'm selling / auctioning this painting for the cause. any offers would be greatly appreciated. 100% of the proceeds are going to helping this girl start a normal life. the canvas is 61cm x 1m, and is gallery depth (doesn't need framing). i'm also donating 100% of the proceeds from the sales of any of my paintings and portraits for the foreseeable future to assist women victims of domestic violence and victims of childhood sexual abuse." - Paula Sinclair

Paula was my lecturer during my postgraduate course. I have learnt a lot from her about Advertising and also that she is a very passionate person when it comes to the cause she is fighting against.

Please spread the word and help me support my lecturer in her noble act. Thank you very much!

Cloud of Clues

2011-02-18T18:09:00.000+10:00

The soul behind the cloud of clues

Are you watching closely?

(SFX - Wind/Thunder)

(Guitar INTRO)

(All instruments BEGIN)

When I ask you to disappear

You shall disappear

When I ask you to appear

You shall appear

You are mine

Pride turns an angel to a devil

(Keyboard SOLO)

I take less than what I need

I snatch more than I need

My secret dies with me

My secret amazes the world

And its fools

(Instrumental Break)

Hahahaha

(All Instruments BEGIN)

(Instrumental Section - 8 minutes)

Nothing is impossible

Impossible is expensive

But not impossible

Vanity

The polite mask of pride on my face

I walk around to amuse and amaze

(SPOKEN MAN I)

You are amazed because you are a fool

The wait has come to end

The curtain has fallen

Still you can see nothing, can you?

I will now allow you to meet yourself

Are you ready?

(TEMPO +)

(SPOKEN MAN I)

I love the man in the mirror

I disguise the lies in truth

And, you are mine

The person you are trying to reach is right here

In front of you

He is you

(SPOKEN MAN II)

You are not the master

You are the fool here

Your reach exceeds your grip

Don't fool yourself anymore

Stop living your act

You are the fool here

(DUAL VOCALS)

Secrets are your life

Burn the venom of deceit and

For a change

Try being yourself

(BLASTBEAT)

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass SOLO)

(Guitar SOLO)

One man, two roles

Two men, one role

(Guitar EXTRO)

Image by live2b

Empty Vase

2011-01-22T09:51:00.001+10:00

(Guitar INTRO)

(SFX – Wind)

(WHISPER)

Are you watching closely?

(Drums BEGIN)

You want to be fooled

Once you know the secret

You will no longer look for the known

Keep looking

Be amazed

In two minds

(Strings BEGIN)

You’re not fooling anyone

Everyone knows the truth

They pay a price to be fooled

(DUAL VOCALS)

Don’t fool anyone

Make them wonder

I may be not what you think I am

(DUAL VOCALS)

No tricks, no lies, no secrets

I don’t love you today

(DUAL VOCALS)

All those questions I’d asked

To which the answers I had known

Are coming back for me now

(Guitar SOLO)

(DUAL VOCALS)

When 9 becomes an 8

You are closer to your fate

Still, he doesn’t mind death

(DUAL VOCALS)

Keep it with you

For if you give it up

You give up more than you think you have

(WHISPER)

Everything has a price

When the curtain falls

The price is revealed

Everything has a price

When the curtain falls

The price is revealed

(GROWL)

Everything has a price

When the curtain falls

The price is revealed

Everything has a price

When the curtain falls

The price is revealed

(SPEAKER 1)

Greatness is in power and fame

(SPEAKER 2)

Greatness is in goodness and service

(SPEAKER 1)

I am looking closely for that one thing that can fool everyone, hahaha

(SPEAKER 2)

Are you watching closely?

(SPEAKER 1)

I have gone everywhere. I have made sacrifices.

(SPEAKER 2)

You have made convenient choices.

(SPEAKER 1)

What do you mean?

(SPEAKER 2)

Are you really looking?

(SPEAKER 1)

YES!

(SPEAKER 2)

Have you seen below that vase?

(SPEAKER 1)

No. What about it? It is empty.

(SPEAKER 2)

Are you really looking?

Photo by Ajey Padival

Rusting doors

2011-01-02T16:30:00.001+10:00

(SFX - Heavy Breathing)

(Guitar INTRO)

(Strings CRESCENDO)

(Drums BEGIN)

I convey her love for me

For my self-satisfaction

The splash of the wave

Slaps the back door close

Skid marks on the wood

I may be not what you think I am

Now, this is all I do

I wait as the curtain falls

(Guitar SOLO)

(BACKING VOCALS BEHIND SOLO)

"Be with someone who loves you than

Being with the one you love"

What's in the hand is not grasped

What's on your mind is far from reachable

What's in your arms is not cherished

In the end the devil dances

To his death

In his quest to create

Something more than he could

He lost his way

To his pride

The man, his decisions in two minds

This time he is hollow below the lights

(DUAL VOCALS)

I may be not what you think I am

Now, this is all I do

I wait as the curtain falls

(Guitar SOLO)

(Instrumental section - 6 minutes)

The curtain has fallen

The curtain has fallen down

Soaked in the serum of truth

Burning in the venum of deceit

The curtain has fallen down

Still, he doesn't mind death

(SFX - Phone ringing + Instrumental section - 2 minutes)

The numbers take a toll

It is 9, could be 8, could be 8, then a 6, a 2, may be an 8 and then some more

(Drum SOLO)

The rusting doors could keep him away

But, not his pride

The man, his decisions in two minds

This time he is hollow below the lights

(All INSTRUMENTS STOP)

(GRAND ENTERANCE OVERLAPPING VOCALS BELOW)

The curtain has fallen

The curtain has fallen down

Soaked in the serum of truth

Burning in the venum of deceit

The curtain has fallen down

It's falling down

Image by Dali Savador

The Curtain Falls

2011-01-01T11:23:00.000+10:00

(Guitar + String INTRO)

(Bass +Drums BEGIN)

(Guitar SOLO)

The mist above the frozen lake

The soul behind the cloud of clues

The crack on the empty vase

The man rests behind rusting doors

Bleeding it all out

Death, he doesn't mind

The cowardice lives a shameful life

(Guitar SOLO)

The man, his decisions in two minds

He is hollow below the shadow

But, between the lights

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass + Guitar DUAL)

(SPEAK -> WHISPER)

Just waiting now

(All INSTRUMENTS BEGIN)

(SFX) (Overlapping instrumental section - 2 minutes)

Calling... 9886287141

The person you are trying to reach is busy with another call. Please try again later.

Redialing... 9886287141

The person you are trying to reach is busy with another call. Please try again later.

(Instrumental section - 6 minutes)

(All instruments STOP except STRINGS)

(SPEAK)

He's just waiting now

(ALL INSTRUMENTS STOP)

The curtain falls

Image by Ajey Padival

Broken Wing

2010-12-30T08:58:00.001+10:00

I sit alone in my new home. The differences I notice make me wonder if I could have asked for anything more than what I had been just blessed with. A new walkman with selected tracks recorded on a tape. Why is it that my own family never did this for me? Why were they so unloving and uncaring? Why is it that I was forced to live a life filled with compromises? And here, I say to myself, “Not any more, not any more”.

I remember the dark scribbles on my white mudded walls - a lady with long hair, glasses and claws, a man with a drink in his hand, a whip in another and four innocent kids screaming my name in vain and pleading for forgiveness. All in vain!

I had swum enough in circles with a broken wing.

Until now, life was all about surviving. Until now, I knew only of my weaknesses. For a change, I, who was once behind a change, had change knocking on my door.

My determination grew. My will to become someone and succeed grew. But, the chains that were tied to my feet were yet to be broken.

How can people love so deeply? How can there be so much passion? Is this all fake? It seems real. It seems surreal.

I still remember that Tuesday morning when a man in a black coat came home, saw me, spoke to them and took me away from them. Although I cried, the tears I shed came from happiness.

This was the first right choice I had made since a long time.

Distracted by the colourful outside, I deviated again. I did not completely understand the value of happiness I was just blessed with. I turned greedy. I looked for more. I needed more. I needed them quickly. That was my second mistake.

As I stepped down into the crevasse, I enjoyed the journey. I decided against seeing the eyes of the ones who truly loved me to seeing something that brought instant pleasure. It is true that happiness does not come easily. But, when it comes, it lasts forever. When a man struggles and strives for happiness, he shall get it. And, when he gets it, he will truly be happy. He will be contented. Now, I know this. Back then, I was allured into some fatal attraction that I thought was better than what I already had. A regretful mistake.

Before I knew, I was slipping rapidly deep into the crevasse.

I decided to become the man in my dreams sooner than ideally possible. I failed.

I tried to correct all the wrongs I had done. I failed.

I lost all my money. I took over debts that were not mine. I disappointed the ones who truly loved me. And, when I said I love you, I did not mean it.

All I could do is lie on my broken bed and think of the mistakes I made. I opened my eyes to a new beginning. I lifted the book with the golden title and read it. I realized what I had done wrong.

I had fallen in love with a woman. I never told her how much she meant to me. What I shared with her was emotional and intimate and not just physical attraction. I realized, that was the only right thing I had done in my life. The alcohol in my body killed the sleeping tablets I had taken. I had been lucky that night.

This is the second time a chance was knocking on my door. This time I was determined to not mess around with it. I decided to cherish what I have. I learnt that relationships were more than just physical attraction. I now knew that no matter what, being honest and loyal would be appreciated and respected. So, I did just that.

Although maimed, I crawled out of the crevasse. I showed not my anger on the world because of my misfortune and my wrong turns, but my love to help people make the right choice.

Now, I realize how it is to be loved for a long time by the same person. I have learnt to recognise the loyalty and sincerity in someone’s love. True love is judged against a love for a mother for her child. It remains forever. I had not noticed it. Now, I am cherishing it.

Now, I realize that nothing in life comes easy. I need to work hard for it. Success can only be savoured after burning the midnight oil doing hard work.

Image by lindelokse

Mirage is a delusion

2010-12-13T11:25:00.000+10:00

(WHISPER)

Awake your intelligence

(All instruments begin)

Your lies are coated with your blood

And, your mind is sabotaged

You’re submerged in the unpleasant

And, your mind is weakened

You think, you’re strong

But a broken back can take them miles ahead

While pushed to the corner, they grow much stronger

To fight back

It‘s some silence that we humans pray for

The more we pour

The cactus shall grow to

Suck in the shapes and colours

Having no name

You’ve got no one to blame

(Guitar SOLO)

The desert is your lonely enemy

The water that’s shown is a felony

To be known as the only one in this world

Is not so much to ask

(DRUM PAUSE)

Heh, is that so much to ask?

(Drums BEGIN)

We’re known to them but

To us they’ll stay unknown

Too many men

Searching for the one oasis

Don’t move your hand or else

The thirsty bee shall sting you

Don’t trust no one

You’re pushed into the

Baptism of fire

A seedless date

You can have it if you desire

Saving from your shameful fate

You are a rare and a delicate flower

Get out from the mouth of the white whale

Who cry, “We have bled, so they will bleed” (SPOKEN)

“We have bled, so they will bleed” (ECHO)

“We have bled! so they will bleed!”

“We have bled! so they will bleed!” (ECHO)

“We have bled so they will bleed and bleed till bled out” (WHISPER)

It’s time for you to analyze

The mirage is a delusion

It’s time for you to realize

And, get out of your confusion

The desert is your only friend

The water that’s seen is your worst enemy

To be known as the only one in this world

Is not so much to ask

It is not so much to ask

The mirage is a delusion

So, get out of your confusion

It’s time for you to...

Realize (WHISPER)

Photo and Effect by Ajey Padival

Fractured

2010-12-09T17:45:00.001+10:00

(Keyboard INTRO)

(Guitar + Strings begin)

(Drums begin)

This is how my story

Goes

My life in silence

My loneliness asks me

The reason behind

This suicide

A scene from my

Memory speaks

In the words of my silence

The pain blossoms again

And, tells me again

The bouquet of roses

Have fallen down

The withering roses

Shades my soul now

And, I am breathing

Fast

Yes, this is how my story

Goes

Lost in the fog without a trace

Fear develops

Within me

And, it tells me again

The bouquet of roses

Have fallen down

The withering roses

Shades my soul now

I stand here holding the candle. It shines. But, it also melts away. The wax hurts my palm, but I smile. It stops shining. And, you cannot see me smile. But, I am still smiling. There is no one now. It is just that you cannot see anyone now. I am still here. Feelings peeled away. Only my heartbeat announces my existence. My life, I live. If I live it for someone who makes it worth living, I’d be happier. I’d be stitched back to myself. Every story has an ending. But, this is life. Here, every ending is a new beginning. For now, I am fractured. But, I am breathing, slowly.

(Guitar SOLO)

And, now,

There’s no one with me

But, then

Why do I feel someone is close to me?

Caught in the knots of words

I once meant

I still mean them

I need to break free

To catch my breath

But, I don’t want to

Still, my life wishes to live

This bouquet of thorns

This forest of memories

Cannot see the sun

I live between the stings

Of my memories

I pick my scenes

From the thorns of memories

I look for myself within

My crashing dreams

The shadow from the withered tree

Shades me now

And, I am breathing

Or, am I?

Photo and Effect by Ajey Padival

The Little Lamp

2010-12-03T12:18:00.000+10:00

(Piano INTRO)

In the land of belated wishes

Where the shadows eves drop on the forgotten dreams

And, silence weaves a web of enchanted themes

(Drums BEGIN)

(Instrumentals – 1 minute)

Lives

Have stories of their own

Lies

Give birth to the unknown

(Drums STOP)

Live with me for this moment

That is going to become a memory

The little lamp scares the fear away

In the darkest night

If you don’t risk a thing

You risk even more

So remember

Surrender to the moment

(Drums BEGIN)

(Guitar SOLO)

The blanket of ignorance covers everything

But, it watches all

It hides away the fiery lightning

Muffles away the thunder

Cushions every fall you have

And, what you’ve seen is hard to recall

(DUAL VOCALS)

I am

Burying in time

The regret

I try to forget

(Drums STOP)

(Guitar + Piano DUAL)

(Drum BEGINS)

Live with me for this moment

That is going to become a memory

The little lamp scares the fear away

In the darkest night

If you don’t risk a thing

You risk even more

Surrender to the moment

(Piano EXTRO)

Photo and Effect by Ajey Padival

Strange people

2010-11-02T06:50:00.001+10:00

(Only GUITARS and DRUMS)

This is for them, for all the strange ones

The ones who smile to stab you later

People who need you, they smile and then greet you

And, once they’re done, they show you the door

When you are like them

You sit and defend them

And, when you’re unlike them

You stand and offend

You strange people

You may have seen them, you may know their names too

You just smile and greet them, but you call them your friends

When others do something, something you’ve done too

You stand up in front and preach to them

When you promise that, you’ll do something

You don’t keep your word and act to be strange

And, when you lie, you lie right at her face

And, you simply say, “I did it for you”

You strange people

When you are like them

You sit and defend them

And, when you’re unlike them

You stand and offend

You strange people

Photo by Ajey Padival

Wayne Starks

2010-10-25T13:54:00.002+10:00

I came across Wayne Starks's music only a few days ago via April's Facebook Wall. He is a budding artist, but his talent has crossed the stage of being "budding". I will explain this below. His songs "Ruler" and "Believe" are showcased on iTunes. It took me less that 3 minutes to listen to the preview and purchase the tracks.

Ever since I marked his songs on iTunes, I have been following his popularity chart. Within 36 hours his popularity has grown from 1 to 5 stars. And, I know why.

Regardless of the genres you mostly listen to, it comes to the fact whether OR not you have a good musical taste OR not. I recall my dad instantly loving a heavy metal song. It took me at least 20 minutes to believe my eyes and ears as he complemented the song. He said, "Music doesn't see genres. Music is music. There is melody, there is harmony. And, that's it. It is we who differentiate it into different genres. In reality, it is all the same". I saw his point.

I am stating this because people find it hard to believe that I listen to genres less heavy that metal. Umm... I do.

While I studied music in my undergraduate studies, I loved this subject that taught me about various genres. I got to know several artists and their musical style.

There are many ways you can get successful in the music industry. I am focusing here on the talent aspect of the industry and not the marketing. I am going to focus on two ways.

Having a unique voice OR knowing how to make the best use of your voice by recognizing your USP. The latter method can be nurtured if you have a good producer with you.

There are several good singers around. I have heard to many of them who are showered with complements everyday. Sometimes these complements are strictly due to the religious commonness, similarities in demographics and tastes. I mean, sometimes people complement good singers strictly because they belong to the same religion, hail from the same post code, share the common interests and so on. Last evening, I was in a performance of one of the finest singers that I came across in OzLand.

Many of these, let's say singers sing very well. But, you need to have an ex-factor to become successful. Consistency in the tone, variation in the style, time management, pitch control, are some of the vital factors necessary to be kept in constant check. And now, since LIVE performances have become very popular, good showmanship is a must.

Since I have been reviewing various genres of music since 6 years (and more), I have been learning and understanding the industry's needs very well. Plus, I have been also growing skeptical and choosy when it comes to what kind of music I like OR dislike.

When it comes to Gospel music, there should be a strong personal, spiritual, and communal belief that focuses mainly on the Christian belief. In the early days, there was a strict template of doing this. But, now things have changed.

In the song, "Believe", you will notice a classic Gospel background but with a modern Gospel music taking the front seat. In other words, this is Contemporary Christian Music.

The syncopated rhythm that Wayne Starks establishes with his backing tracks is worth a listen. I reckon this is a perfect way to satisfy the other objective of Gospel Music; spreading the word of the Lord and of love - Modernizing the tune to appeal to the younger generation.

In this attempt, Wayne has quite successfully shown his singing skills by touching the highest notes that he can without losing sight of the fact that the feelings should remain intact. When a tone is reached without the feel, it is hollow. Wayne makes sure that he does not slip. This is commendable.

It is second track - "Ruler" that is comparatively more impressive when it comes to the feel factor. One of the strongest aspects of Gospel Music that has to kept in mind is that if you cannot feel the lyrics, if you do not believe in it, then you cannot sing it effectively. It is like the code of conduct.

This fact differentiates this genre from all the other genres. In a generic sense, lyrics have to be felt to sing them in a convincing manner. But, most genres compromise on that factor except for Gospel Music.

Close your eyes, lay back, listen to the song, and you will see what I mean.

The chord progressions make this song very touching, very hope-filled, very reassuring, and very healing. And, Wayne's voice "earns" the attention as supposed to "grabbing" it from his listeners. The backing vocals and the dual vocals are arranged in a very wise manner that each note that is sung can be felt.

The pauses in the backing choir is arranged very well for Wayne's voice to stick out. The repetition of the lines only accentuates the feeling, and the depth of the song to a whole new level.

What I notice here is that, Wayne's voice is not unique per se, but he knows his strengths very well enough to know the way it should be portrayed. And, he does not compromise on his feelings in his songs. If he can continue to mean and believe in what he sings, it will undoubtedly show via his music. Plus, adding a new dimension will not hurt. And, that can become his unique selling proposition.

Believe - 7.5/10

Ruler - 8/10

Colours

2010-10-21T19:53:00.000+10:00

(Piano INTRO)

(SFX – Thunder)

(Bass BEGINS)

“The colour of rage

Swells up inside me

I change it to become a

Colour of energy and passion

Happiness that I am a part of

The colour that keeps me warm and happy

Becomes stronger

It makes me feel happy

The colour of laughter spreads through

The dark sky

Calm and cool, I feel

Now, here, in this moment of blueness

With crayons in my hand

I craft my life

The slight shade of pink on my cheeks

I am blushing

Colours of life

Red to orange to yellow to green

More than just

Black and white

I see colours too”

(Strings BEGIN)

The purple sun

The pink sky

The yellow night

The blue clouds

The violet moon

The green stars

The white leaves

The gray ocean waves

The bronze sand

The silver snow

The grey rainbow

(Piano SOLO)

Red brings life

Orange brings a smile

Yellow bids goodbye

Green brings envy

Blue brings tears

Indigo brings peace

Purple brings loneliness

Shades of light

Shades of dark

“Both black and white

Blind the sight

Both black and white

Bind the right”

(Bass SOLO)

“A large sunflower cries

A small forget-me-not

A strong and warm beam of sunlight

Comes between the pouring rain”

Photo by Ajey Padival

It's okay

2010-10-19T06:28:00.002+10:00

(Drums BEGIN)

(Piano BEGINS)

(Bass BEGINS)

You need to wake up

Don’t stay here, go to a better place

You must try it yourself

And see

Broken dreams can be fixed again

Just wait for another day

Another night

(Guitar BEGINS)

(DUAL VOCALS)

When everything is empty now

I say, okay

When everything is blurry now

I say, okay

(SPOKEN)

It will be okay

(Keyboard + Guitar DUAL)

While sadness takes over you

You see the world the way it bothers you

See not the tears, see not the pain

See them all, seek the reason

And, be there

Stay

(Choir – AH)

You’re walking through the dark

Yourself

Sometimes

It takes a twig to help you survive

Sometimes

Candlelight can warm you from across the room

(Backing VOCALS – AH)

When everything is empty now

I say, it’s okay

When everything is blurry now

I say, it’ll be okay

(Guitar SOLO EXTRO)

Photo by Ajey Padival

Believe that I know

2010-10-13T07:45:00.000+10:00

(Guitar INTRO)

(Bass and Strings BEGIN)

(Percussion BEGINS)

(Guitar SOLO)

(Drums BEGIN)

(Instrumentals - 5 minutes)

(Choir – AH)

Well

(Guitar SOLO)

(Guitar + Keyboard DUAL – 2 minutes)

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass SOLO)

Ancient gardener

Glassy eyes, warm breath

Deep insight

Chirping robins

Anchored ships, warm breath

Swinging branches

(Drums BEGIN)

Bird tracks

In the fresh snow

Sailing on maple leaves

A delicate breeze

Teases a still pond

Blushing with delicate ripples

You don’t drown in the river you’ve fallen into

But, if you stay still, you’ll never rise again

(Guitar SOLO)

Profound thoughts

Sunrays during winter

Least noise made

Changing forever

It takes as it gives

Water turns to sky

In the middle of the river

With mist on the paddle

I hear the silence

Peace I’ve felt before

Only with you

(SCALE CHANGE)

As you know what I’ve been meaning to say

You’re feeling the way I’m feeling

(Drums BREAK)

(Primary SCALE GAINED)

(Drums BEGIN)

(STRINGS SOLO)

(Guitar SOLO)

(Drums BREAK)

(Bass SOLO)

(Bass BREAK)

(Strings BREAK)

What I am to you

Is only known to you

Imprisoned inside of me

Is a secret that reveals

How much you mean to me

I still believe...

I will always...

Believe that I know

That I can

(Drums BEGIN)

(Strings BEGIN)

(Guitar SOLO EXTRO)

Photo by Ajey Padival

The little lamp

2010-10-11T19:50:00.002+10:00

(Piano INTRO)

In the land of belated wishes

Where the shadows eves drop on forgotten dreams

And, silence weaves a web of enchanted themes

(Drums BEGIN)

(Instrumentals – 1 minute)

Lives

Have stories of their own

Lies

Give birth to the unknown

(Drums STOP)

Live with me for this moment

That is going to become a memory

The little lamp scares the fear away

In the darkest night

If you don’t risk a thing

You risk even more

So remember

Surrender to the moment

(Drums BEGIN)

(Guitar SOLO)

The blanket of ignorance covers everything

But, it watches all

It hides away the fiery lightning

Muffles away the thunder

Cushions every fall you have

And, what you’ve seen is hard to recall

(DUAL VOCALS)

I am

Burying in time

The regret

I try to forget

(Drums STOP)

(Guitar + Piano DUAL)

(Drum BEGINS)

Live with me for this moment

That is going to become a memory

The little lamp scares the fear away

In the darkest night

If you don’t risk a thing

You risk even more

Surrender to the moment

(Piano EXTRO)

Photo by Ajey Padival

It's this time

2010-10-07T07:05:00.002+10:00

Innocent beginnings

(Piano – INTRO)

(SPOKEN)

I’ve done many wrongs

I’ve lied, I’ve stolen

There are promises I’ve broken

But, you know me too well to know

That I would never

Take a life off another

(All instruments begin)

(SINGING)

It’s your faith that’s brought you in here

You’ve done nothing wrong

But, you say, you’ve done

How far will you go for me?

And, have faith in me,

Your son

These tears are your child’s cries

But, this time there is no one who cares

It’s now, I realize

(Drums stop)

You mean a lot to me, Da

(Drums begin)

(Piano + Guitar solo)

Innocent defense

(Instrumentals – 30 seconds)

You board the train that’s on a track

To where it goes, we both don’t know

You follow me behind in the row

Where no one would go, no friend, no foe

You forgive me, you shower me with hope (+ ECHO x 1)

These tears are your child’s cries

But, this time there is no one who cares

It’s now, I realise

You mean a lot to me, Da

(Guitar Bridge)

(Music stops)

(Only Strings + Bass)

It’s too easy to be a father. It takes a lot to be a dad (SPOKEN)

(Other instruments begin)

Innocent playgrounds

(Instrumentals – 1 minute)

They say they’ll speak the truth

They’ll speak nothing but the truth

Without a shadow of ruth

Fingers point at me for things

I haven’t done this time

Still, you tell me to smile and

You smile back at me

You forgive me, you shower me hope (+ ECHO x 1)

(Piano solo)

The liar keeps lying

But, you never stop trying

To keep me away from dying

You keep on trying

I shall remember this henceforth

Never to believe these men of oath

(Drum Bridge)

(Guitar solo)

My silence is my worst enemy now

How do I tell you Da

The depth of the dark side I’ve reached

It’s hard to swim through these violent seas

Emotions make them decide

In hell, they want me to reside

(Music stops)

(Only Strings + Bass)

Help me!!! I didn’t do anything!!! (SCREAM)

Innocent plead innocence

(Instrumentals – 5 minutes)

(Guitar solo – 20 seconds)

(+ TEMPO)

Dressed in blue with yellow stripes!

There’s spit on our plate!

You say to fight for our right!

To get our life out of this plight!

I can’t take any more of this!

We hold our hands and!

Without the evidence!

We plead for innocence!

(REGAIN PRIMARY TEMPO)

(Guitar Bridge)

Innocent walls

(Guitar and Keyboard duo – 3 minutes)

Scarred by faulty blames

Barred from salty lakes

My heart bursts into flames

Within four walls

My sickened life forsakes

Stuck in a drought of faith!

We need to get out of this wraith!

Of justice, mercy and clemency!

(Keyboard solo – 30 seconds)

(Drum bridge)

Innocent victims

(Instrumentals – 30 seconds)

Da, the seed of faith that you sowed in me

Has begun to flower

Years have passed by

With no one to listen

No one to talk to

The truth has gone to dust (DUAL VOCALS)

They have blocked the light! (DUAL VOCALS)

But, the light shines bright in my head

The lie stares at my face! (DUAL VOCALS)

But, I shall fight it with all my might

(Music stops)

(Bass Bridge)

Innocent fear (SKIT)

(Strings solo)

(Strings + Bass w/o drums)

SON: “Da, are you all right? Da!

Oh God in heaven, don’t do this to me, please.

Wake up Da”.

(SINGING)

I stay up all night

Visions of you fill my sight

I think of what’s wrong and what’s not

I remember you telling me to fight

I shiver

My tears glitter

The ray of hope shimmers

(Strings Bridge)

(SFX-Knock on door)

(MUFFLED Guitar distortion CRESCENDO OVERLAPPING DIALOGUE BELOW)

MAN: “Your father passed away an hour ago”.

(Music stops SILENCE)

SON: “Thank you very much” (+ ECHO x 3)

(SILENCE – 8 seconds)

(Violin + Guitar strokes only)

As flames fall from the sky

I stare and refuse to die

My eyes refuse to blink

My heart refuses to sink

These tears are your child’s cries

Now, there is

No one to care (DUAL VOCALS)

It’s this time

I realize

You meant a lot to me, Da

(Guitar Bridge)

(SOBBING)

Oh, you meant the whole world to me, Da! (SPOKEN)

You’re gone. Hope’s gone. (WHISPER)

(Violin EXTRO)

Innocent campaign – “Parade of innocence”

(Strings + Drums begin)

(Drum solo)

(Strings, Drums and Bass only)

“Free the four”! (X8) (ADLIB)

Innocent ending

(Strings + Guitar solo)

(+TEMPO)

They push me into the well!

Full of misery and injustice!

It’s like being in hell!

The magic word cannot bring me solace!

No more!

(Guitar Bridge)

The saviour descends down!

To save us!

We, the innocent!

Scapegoats! (DUAL VOCALS)

So, when the truth rises

And, the blindfold unties

I’ll remember your words Da

(REGAIN PRIMARY TEMPO)

(Strings + Drum solo)

(STRETCHED VOCAL)

Da!

(BACKING VOCALS SPOKEN)

“Believe in Him. Trust Him”

“The needy will never be forgotten”

“So, keep hoping for the right, my son. For we are saved by hope”

(Instrumental solo – 1 minute)

(-TEMPO)

In the name of my father!

In the name of the truth!

I’ll fight for justice!

Until justice is got!

(Guitar solo)

Innocent victory

(CHOIR-AH)

There is someone up there

Looking at us

Smiling at us (DUAL VOCALS)

(Instrumental Bridge)

Truth triumphs

Wounds heal

A silver lining appears

And, darkness disappears

(Piano solo)

(Drum Bridge)

These tears are your child’s cries

Now, there is

No one to care for me (DUAL VOCALS)

It’s this time, I realize

You meant a lot to me, Da

(HIGH-PITCH)

Oh, I cry to the skies above

There’s no one here for me

It’s this time, I realize

(All instruments stop except Strings)

You meant a lot to me, Da

(Strings EXTRO)

Photo by Ajey Padival

I don't believe

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(BASS THROUGHOUT)

I don’t believe in heaven

I don’t believe in hell

I don’t believe in pain

I don’t believe in suffering

I don’t believe in hope

I don’t believe in winning

I don’t believe in loosing

An easy mistake to make

Now, regret is all I take

As the snow drops down from the skies

The hope for a new start dies

One word, just one word from me

I could’ve stopped an innocent demise

I hold my breath,

I hold my breath deep inside of me

As I pass by the yard

As life got sucked from my inside

I sunk and shrunk to the bone

Not a shadow to guide me

I could’ve stopped an innocent demise

That day judged me

That day betrayed me

Now, I’m gasping for a new life

I don’t hold my breath no more

As I pass by the yard

Pull me down by my feet

Cause I’ve seen enough

I don’t believe in death

Photo by Ajey Padival