Monday, April 6, 2009

Lose my mind

(SFX – Banging the door INTRO)
(Fading SFX + Instrumental begin)

Fuzzy dreams fill my eyes
I’m falling down alone to lose my mind
Time for me to say “Bubye”
I’m falling down alone to lose my mind
There’s more than what meets the eye
I’m falling down alone to lose my mind

(Strings + Keyboard Bridge)

The life I’ve lived
So many dreams unfulfilled
Please forgive me and do not blame me
I just cannot live with this shame anymore

I take the pill to kill
The pain I’ve carried for long enough
To add a twist
I bear these scars on my left wrist

(Instrumental BRIDGE)

The painful screams in my ear
I fear the beauty I find within the beast
I feel cold when I am on fire
I’m tied up, but I’m out of control
It feels like someone’s digging out my soul

I kill my dying dreams (X3 - BACKING VOCALS)

(Keyboard + Bass solo)

I bear these scars on my wrist to kill
The pain I’ve carried for long enough
To add a twist
I slip and fall down
To cut the rope of connection
As I kill my dying dreams

(Instrumental Bridge)

Fuzzy dreams fill my eyes
I’m falling down alone to lose my mind
Time for me to say “Bubye”
I’m falling down alone to lose my mind
There’s more than what meets the eye
I’m freely falling down now


I’m freely falling down to lose my mind (EXTRO)

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2001 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675;

Image by Shaun Keenan

52 responses:

The Write Girl said...

Hey Brosreview,

What a prolific song writer you are. I think song writing is difficult so I am very much impressed!!

Brosreview said...

@The Write Girl - Thank you!!!

Anonymous said...

Me likes this song !!! verrryyy much !!

Linda S. Socha said...

I like this one. I think deeply feeling people are song writers.What would be your take on that......?

Thanks for thinking of me for the tag! I will do it very soon

Make Me Disappear said...


This song is quite powerful I must say.

Specially, the fourth verse, stands out.

Feeling cold in fire, that must hurt a lot.

Thank you..!!

Brosreview said...

@Pretty Me!! - Glad you like this one!!! Cheers!!!

Brosreview said...

@Linda - I would change that line to - Deeply feeling expresser can make for a good songwriter.

Yea, we need to probe hard if the work has to stand out. Else, you can still release some good stuff. But, it shall be quite superficial. I think the same theory goes with poetry as well. When the tiniest of details are revealed, people embrace it more.

Well, mainly it is all up to people and their tastes.

Yea, I shall look out for your answers. Cheers!!!

Brosreview said...

@Make Me Disappear - Thank you!!!

Rikkij said...

AJ-this one's more upbeat. '01 must have been a cheerier time. Ha!
lot of back and forth contrast and the verses move along at an even clip. nothing close to clumsy. That's a rap! so to speak. ~Rick

Brosreview said...

@Rikkij - Thanks mate!!! '01 was a cheerier time. But, this song is me being confused, so to speak.

Anonymous said...

That's why I like how you write Ajey. You write from a place deep within you. Although I have to be honest (you know I do), I sway more to the Poetic side of things and yet there are often areas in your lyrics that do such.
BTW I lost my mind a looooooooooooooong time ago!

Brosreview said...

@SarahA - Thank you so much SarahA!!! xx AJ

sudharm baxi said...

Wanted to quote a few lines in order to praise, but thought otherwise, because i could pick a few line out of this piece and hence imply the remaining piece was okay but these were good.

The complete song is fantastic and a lovely read, the best thing you know is - No unnecessary attempts!!

Loved it!!

Brosreview said...

@sudharm baxi - Oh, that is very nice of you. Thanks a lot!!!

Shadow said...

your words are perfectly descriptive, some very familiar, some i'd prefer to not read, so very heartfelt they are..... lovely!

Brosreview said...

@Shadow - Thank you!!!

Cognizance said...

Hi, sundar..i got to know abt your blog thru one of ur visitor...

Is that a meloncholy strain!!!!


Brosreview said...

@Cognizance - Yes, you could call this that. Thank you for reading!!!

Walker said...

That was great man.
I could feel it as i was reading

Brosreview said...

@Walker - Thank you!!!

Noelle said...

Amazing and sooo deep. I can relate to some of it...especially the first part. You are soo good with words. Wow!

Brosreview said...

@Noelle - Thank you!!! Yea, I reckon many go through this stage making easy to relate.

Notion said...

this is hot as usual

i love tht line saying
I feel cold when i'm on fire
that is a great line

Brosreview said...

@Notion - Thank you!!!

Woman in a Window said...

Brosreview, here's a legitimate question. Do you have to feel these things to write of them? I came once before and read this one and felt unable to comment because it's so heavy. Tell me 'bout this one, k.

Brosreview said...

@Woman in a Window - A very strong and tough question you ask. Well, I don't think it is "necessary" to experience the scenario to write about it.

But, I tend to either research about subjects I have not experienced such that my song feels "true".

Alternatively or rather mainly, I write about many things that I have experienced myself.

You must have noticed that I don't write about the most common themes such as love, friendship blah blah blah. I respect such themes but I am tired of writing on such themes.

The themes I touch are deep and very "personal" to each one. Now, I can explain a feel simply by putting it this way - "I am sad"
Or, I could intensify it with adding more feelings to it such as, "Black clouds hover over me, I meaning of life disperses away from me" etc. So, I feel the need to feel such feelings so that I can express it better via a song.

But, as I mentioned earlier, it is not necessary. But, I've always seen the benefit by doing so. You just used the word "heavy". That's what I put into almost all my songs.

Hope this answers the query. If not, let me know. Cheers!!!

And, thanks for reading. I shall await your comment.

PULKIT said...

very meaningful lyrics... loved the work!

Brosreview said...

@Pulkit - Thank you!!!

mysterious gal said...

wow u write songs n that too perfectly love it......i can even imagine doing that myself...though i wd love too :D keep writing

Brosreview said...

@mysterious gal - Thank you!!! You should give it a try!!!

Shadow said...

hiya, your meme's up today. and be sure to pop in tomorrow, there's sure to be something waiting for you.... but only tomorrow....

Anonymous said...

No no no no not you Ajey *sigh*

LORENZO said...

Fourth stanza is on the money. Life is truly a paradox...wish to hear the music with the words. Keep up the writing, the poetry in your lyrics is strong.

Anonymous said...

I wish I could hear this ,AWESOME!!

Brosreview said...

@Shadow - Yea, I'll be there shortly.

Brosreview said...

@SarahA - Nice to know you think that way SarahA!!! Thank you!!!

Brosreview said...

@Lorenzo - Thanks a lot!!!

Brosreview said...

@Inky - Thank you!!! Once it is composed, I shall post a link for sure.

Rainbow dreams said...

so real and so all your songs Bros.. love your writing :) Katie

Brosreview said...

@Rainbow Dreams - Thanks a lot!!! That means a lot to me!!!

LLnL said...

WOW! This was an impactful first visit. I found you through Shadow's Award post. Lucky me.

Brosreview said...

LLnL - Ah, thanks a lot!!! I shall visit your spot shortly.

Alexandra Garland said...

Hi Bros,
A lot of pain in this one... remind me of a very young man I know... Growing up can be painful and confusing.

Brosreview said...

@Alexandra Garland - Rightly said. Thank you!!!

Viji said...

I think i would have read around 12-15 songs of yours.

definitely I would call "lose my mind" your master piece.

Yes. writing about love is little mundane. To stand on a plane above this and write about them in a different perspective, needs great skill and feel. I get the feeling that you try to elevate yourself, observe and then write.

I am not sure if I make sense, though you use the first person, i distinctly feel, that you are not writing about Ajey. It is a she/he. you know when we feel dejected, whatever pain or hurt we face, it will not sink, as if you are anesthetized and you watch the twist of knife without the feel of pain.

"I’m tied up, but I’m out of control
It feels like someone’s digging out my soul
I kill my dying dreams"

"I kill my dying dreams"
"I kill my dying dreams"

think i have said enough..

Ajey you rock :D

Brosreview said...

@Viji - Thanks for checking out my old songs as well. it means a lot to me.

A nice perspective you've got for this song Viji.

Thank you!!! I am glad you like this one!!!

Anonymous said...

I haven't just lost my mind...I lost me. As always, brilliant.

Brosreview said...

@Meena - Thank you!!!

Khaled KEM said...

Again my friend. It's not easy to keep the flow especially in a relatively long song like this one but you did it.

Well done!

Brosreview said...

@Khaled KEM - "It's not easy to keep the flow especially in a relatively long song"

Very true!!! It is hard. I'm glad to know I've done it. Thanks a lot!!!

thoughts said...

you have a strange power to immerse deep in human passions and bring out the deepest feelings.

Brosreview said...

@thoughts - Thank you!!!