Immortalised

(PIANO THROUGHOUT)

My precious one

My brave bunny

Becomes a part of this incendiary

Tip-toeing

Through the past

But, towards the future

Bourbon in a mug

And, pills with it

Helps to forget

The voice that has gone

The face that has gone

Words are trivial

Now, the immortalized speak

Dying is easier

But, seeing one die isn’t

So, one more would have done no harm

I can’t come with you now

But I shall soon be there with you, my precious

This quiet rain

Does not stop falling

Paradise

Is now a grey day

Stars shimmer

Like a cemetery in the sky

Searched under the bed

Below the stairs

But, the missing piece

Was forever gone

Love lost

Life lost

Bourbon in a mug

And, pills with it

Helps to forget

The voice that has gone

The face that has gone

Shock in my eyes

Pain in my eyes

Fury in my eyes

Innocence in my eyes

Memories in my eyes

Smile in my eyes

Thank you

Another balloon floats in the air

I am here with you, my precious 

Photo effect by Ajey Padival 

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2008 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

But, this time

(Guitar INTRO)
(NO DRUMS THROUGHOUT)

The life she’d served by living in the moment

Sending a message, but never with a receiver

“Guess what?”, she asked, on the kneeler behind the curtains

She smiled and she whispered

Her name was scratched, first in blue, then in black

And, then she said to us what was unexpected

We heard the pin fall, it scared the silence off

Words just wouldn’t come out

Leaning on our shoulders, she knew we’d be there

There’s never no question, without the answers to them

Leaning on our shoulders, she knew we’d be there

She knew we’ll not defer, and leave her to suffer

(Guitar SOLO)

“Sin without deceivers, a God with no believers”

The poison through the stream

They say could help her smile

Sailing by the winds of silence, she smiles

Leaning on our shoulders, she knew we’d be there

There’s never no question, without the answers to them

Robbing her of her faith, traces of hope she saw, but

She knew we’ll not defer, and leave her to suffer

Her silver hair, her rosy cheeks, her sparkling eyes

Came to life with the spring

“Guess what?”, she asked, but this time we listened

“I’m moving again”, she said, but this time

It was far away

Photo by Ajey Padival

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2010 (Brisbane, Australia; +61434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com

Until the end II (SLOW)

This short song is dedicated to the Shieh family. My thoughts are with you during this painful time. Richie, mate, be strong!

Read the first part here: Until the end


(Strings INTRO)
(Flute solo)
(SFX – Wind)
(Piano begins)
(NO DRUMS THROUGHOUT)

Remember all those days
You promised you would stay
Be there to pick me up when I’m down

Now, that you are gone
I am left to stay alone
Until my end

Who will swallow the poison
And feed me with the nectar
Pa!

(Extended vocal echo + Instrumental break – 4 seconds)

(Piano + Vocal simultaneous start)

Nothing will be the same
Nothing will be all right
Without you by my side
I don’t know if I’ll survive
My life

(Piano ends)
(SFX – Wind EXTRO)


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2009 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by hunt4photo

Until the end

(Piano INTRO)
(All instruments begin)
(Bass Bridge)

One more day
Just for another day
Give Him a reason to stay

The love in your eyes
As you see, my eyes cry
And, you tell me everything will be all right

Nothing will be the same
Nothing will be all right
Don’t see the brightest ray
Stay for one more day

(Piano + Flute Duo Solo)
(Drum fill)

The distance that we had
Not any more, I’m glad
That’s the past that didn’t last
And, faded fast

The distance that we had
Is because of me, my dad
So, if you got to blame someone
Let it be me

Nothing will be the same
Nothing will be all right
Don’t see the brightest ray
Stay here forever and ever

(Drum fill)
(Instrumental Bridge)

Remember all those days
You promised you would stay
Be there to pick me up when I’m down

You’re the one who told me
You wouldn’t ever leave me
Until the end

You’d swallow the poison
To feed me with the nectar
Stay!!!

(Guitar solo)
(Guitar + Piano Duo Bridge)

Nothing will be the same
Nothing will be all right
I’ll hide you from the brightest ray
Please, stay for one more day


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2001 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Bahman Farzad

Final Wave

Many things can be learnt from life
Through the ups and downs, we smile and frown
But, the most important of all, I’ve learnt and taught
Is, “Today, right now, is a wonderful day”

Lend a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on
A word or two for the rest to move on
Bring a smile on faces of both known and unknown
And, you build yourself a memory to cherish upon

As evil holds me
And, thunder obstructs me
Still, I walk on,
The end cannot stop me

I will follow my will as
My life is my own
And, it cannot take me down
I will walk on
I will walk on

Once I am gone, you’ll need to carry on
The storm is closer now, I want to, but I can’t walk on
Many things unseen, many things undone
There’s no place to hide and no place to run

I’m living my life on the time, I’ve borrowed
Now, I can go in peace, I see the immortal sea
Too many memories, too many life’s that I’ve changed
Smile and keep on smiling at my final wave


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2007 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Pamelalong

Close your eyes

Phone rings: Hello, what?!

(Guitar solo)

Arms wide open for you
Close your eyes and breathe again
She waits across to take you far away

You lived your life in misery
You shed the light on our dark minds
There is nothing that I can do for you
Tears just keep crashing

Sleep
Close your eyes
Breathe deeply and
Go to sleep

(Guitar solo)

The path has been cleared for you
It’s hard to believe life’s uncertainty
One moment you are and then you are not around

You lived your life in misery
You shed the light on our dark minds
There is nothing that I can do for you
Tears just keep crashing

Sleep
Close your eyes
Breathe deeply and
Go to sleep

(Music turns aggressive)

These tears of sheer agony!
Sheds the niceness inside me!
Spearing through my consciousness!
The blackness reappears!

I remember
The time when you had
Fought for us boldly
And saved us from the plight

I remember
The time when you had
Taught us the meaning
And essence of life

Take a deep breath and sleep
Through your journeys deep and steep!
I’ll be here my friend
For all that you did for me
Sacrifices with wounds!
I’ll be here my friend

This world has lost its faith!
Here truth is now a wraith!
Shut your eyes to this charade!

(Music turns soft)

And, Sleep
Close your eyes
Breathe deeply and
Go to sleep


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2004 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Zita3

Forgive to Forget

The beginning

(Instrumentals - 2 minutes)

A warm summer noon
Under a blue dotted sky
Filled with compassion
Faith and resilience

Confusion strikes the clueless mind
Arrogance coats the fragile mind
Only the faithful wait
The rest leave one to their fate

Lives try to survive through the flames
With so many to blame
We forget and forgive

Fading innocence
Tries to break the circle
Sinking conscience
Breaks the circle


The night

(Only Piano)

The moon shone
On a beautiful night

They plucked the rose from the garden
Pricked and tore it apart
An unforgiving mistake
Putting lives at stake

“What could we do?”, they ask
She says, “you could have stopped them”

The moon wept
As a star shot down from the sky


The ending

(Drum solo)

This did not intend to end
But, there’s nothing you can do to amend

(Instrumentals – 2 minutes)

She faced the striking voices
And, her heart tore apart
But, her scarred heart kept beating
For the ones she was feeding
My heart kept bleeding
But, the anger wouldn’t stop receding

Our first one was gone
Our lovely one
Faith in Him, was gone
And, we waited for a new dawn

Lives try to survive through the flames
With so many to blame
We forget to forgive

Fading innocence
Tries to break the circle
Sinking conscience
Breaks the circle


The new beginning

(Guitar solo)
(Instrumentals – 2 minutes)

He looked at her
Her, whose heart kept throbbing,
Her, whose inside just could not stop sobbing,
The windows are closed but
The candle light shivers in the dark

Confined to the hole, he was
Recalling his actions
He says, “Scary as hell”
Regret is an unforgiving spell

The life he lived was twisted by this world
He becomes the change, he wishes to see in this world
His mistake with others put a life to an end
Now, penance is his new best friend

(Instrumentals – 2 minutes)

He feels what we felt
Submits to the deal
Admits to the guilt
To help us heal

Eight years, we lived our lives in the flames
With so many to blame
We forget to forgive


Forgive to forget

(Piano solo)
(Instrumental bridge)

The rose was gone
But, the sun still shone
We sow a new seed
With all our love, we shall feed

He scarred our loving hearts
But, we lighten his heavy heart
Not a son to us he was
Still, a son to us he became

With mercy in the air
The sun shone on the endless fields
A life we chose to spare
Forgiveness was only fair

Lives survived though the flames
How many more to blame?
She’s gone and she’s gone forever
Now, we forgive to forget

(Choir –AH)

Love and mercy
Complete the circle
Faith and hope
Complete the circle


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2007 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Mark Krupinski

Then

(Bass Solo)
(Instrumentals – 3 minutes)

Before you left the place
I should have asked you to stay
You could have come
You did not have to pay

I should have stopped you from going on
I should have stopped you from moving on

(Music stops)

Then....

(Music begins - Guitar solo)
(Instrumentals – 3 minutes)

Before I left the green signals
I should have asked you to come along
You could have come
We could have driven along

I could have stopped you from going on
I could have stopped you from moving on

(Music stops)

Then...

(Music begins – Piano solo)
(Instrumentals – 2 minutes)

You’d be here where you belong

Miss you mate (X3 – spoken)


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2002 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Tim Teebken/Getty Images

Patience

The wanderer told me of my sons’ uncertainty
However old he is, still my son he is
My heart’s a compass; it senses he’s lost that way
Hang on my son, don’t you fear, I am heading your way
Patience...

Infinite steps I’ve climbed, thirteen hundred of them barefoot
I realise it’s less in me, I pray more for you than for me
In need of eternal strength, I sacrifice more than one o one
Just hang on my son; I will be there for you
Patience...

Oh, please rays of the great Sun, don’t be harsh upon my son
Be upon me if you need to, I swear I won’t sigh
Bless me with eternal strength, bless me with more patience
To the place I will go, just prevent their strike again

I head there fearlessly, least bothered of the aftermath
Even He knows well, there’s nothing that’ll stop me
Soldiers of Osiris step back as I approach
There is nothing that can infect a fathers’ love for his son
Patience...

Since nineteen ninety four, all’s been just obscure
You’re now thirty four; hope you know that she’s no more
God was all I got, faith was all I had
You left for your greed but you left all your deeds
Patience (is all I need) Solace (is all I need)

Oh great Thoth, accept my prayers, shed more light for my son
Be dark upon me if you need to, I swear I won’t sigh
Come back home my dear son, no questions, nothing I ask
I just need one sight of you, before my toes curl down

Come home my son... Please come home my son...
Come home my son... Please come home my dear son...

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2006 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Destiny

Thirteen, four, ninety four
The crash slashed my life I adored
Scared to shed a tear of happiness
Scared, even to shed a tear of sadness
That moment of choice will never be history

She left, she came
She was just the same
She filled the emptiness she had left
She was her reflection
Yeah! Her reflection

Destiny, it did its thing
A stroke of happiness, a stroke of sadness
She did not realize
Her gentle stroke wasn’t my gruntle stroke

Twelve, Two, Zero Six
My baby, my life, my love, my darling
She was out doing her thing
And suddenly, she wasn’t
That moment, yeah, that moment will never be history

“How could one take her?
How could one feel like taking her?
How could one do things to her?
How could one feel like doing things to her?
How could one? Just, how could one?”

Destiny, it did its thing again
A stroke of happiness, a stroke of sadness
She did not realize
Her gentle stroke wasn’t my gruntle stroke

Its’ been two years of hunting
Every face I see sees me like her
They do something, mostly nothing
I do everything, I possibly can

“Finally, I find her caught in the web, stamped
I stand helpless as she’s taken”

My heart sinks and I am
Scared to shed a tear of happiness
Scared, even to shed a tear of sadness
It is this moment that will never be history

Destiny, it did its thing again
A stroke of happiness, a stroke of sadness
She did just not realize
Her gentle stroke wasn’t my gruntle stroke

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2005 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Below 14 upon 100

Dawns and dusks pass as I still stare at my glaring reflection
Seeing it glittering and then shimmering
Leaving me pondering of the dos and don’ts breached
As the light dims and dims and dims

Re- thinking about the past
Re- considering the situations
Re-judging the circumstances
Re-evaluating the decisions
Remission on wrongfulness
Concluding myself of been right and cursing other selves of been wrong
As the light dims and dims and dims

Immobile and solitary, I was never
But now I shall be forever
I see them sympathizing outside, I dislike it
Emphasizing on being different, I begrudge
Contacts in contact from tonne to none
How could they two leave me too?
Wanting to pull it but willing to push it
The fog has cleared now
But the light dims and dims and dims

Bitter lemons, useless ABC’s, punctures and piercings fill my routine
I turn foe to myself being restricted to Moline
Complaining of what He didn’t give (that was asked for)
Complaining of what He did give (that was uncalled for)
It was just one contact, just one
Could have, I should have probed myself
Below 14 upon100
These endless sweaty chills in May
This progressive failure of my active life
No aid as life’s fate fades as life itself
And the light dims and dims and finally dimmed to light
(Beep)

(This song is written and dedicated to a friend of Brosreview)

Copyright © Ajey Padival 2007 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)