Demise

(Bass Solo)
(Piano)
(Guitar solo)

(RECITAL VOCALS)
Awake, Arise
Needs, Wants
Hate, Hurt
Demise, Despise

(SING)
No one to
Hear me
Nobody
Here to save me

Attracted
Distracted
Disgusted in moments gone

(Keyboard solo)

I know You’re watching
My devotion is fading
There! You stay watching
My life is mourning

(Guitar Bridge)

Venom gushing into my veins
Polluting my brain
Engulfing my innocent
Conscience

(Strings begin)

I begin loosing myself
I'm helplessly blinded by fear
Where do I look for myself?
I’m hopelessly blinded by fear

(Strings end)

Look at me now
You’re hurting me bad
I wanna look at you
Looking at me
Look at me now

You’ve faded me out
Away from my life
But, you still ask for more

You kiss my eyes
You kiss my face
But, you don’t see my sadness

(Strings begin)

I begin loosing myself
I’m helplessly blinded by fear
Where do I look for myself?
I’m hopelessly blinded by fear

(Strings end)

Awake, Arise
Arise, Needs
Needs, Wants
Wants, Hate
Hate, Hurt
Hurt, Demise
Demise, Despise
Despise...

(Instrumental break)

Demise (SPOKEN)

(Instruments begin)

Wash your regrets away
Leave your distrust away
Look at the sunray
And, start a new day

(LOW PITCH)
Do you regret what you’ve done to me?
Do you ever think of me?
How do you still look at your reflection?
Why does your heart have no affection?
You say that you’re sorry
But, your words don’t mean a thing

(HIGH PITCH)
Why don’t you look at me in the eye?
Why don’t you stop being a spy?
I have never understood your intentions
Neither have you

My life is disposed now
My soul is exposed now
I came here alone and I shall die alone

Awake, Arise
Arise, Needs
Needs, Wants
Wants, Hate
Hate, Hurt
Hurt, Demise
Demise, Despise

Wash your regrets away
Leave your distrust away
Look at the sunray
And, start a new day

(Guitar solo)
(Instrumentals – 1 minute)

Look at me
Hurt me bad
I wanna look at you
Looking at me
Look at me now

I know You’re watching
My devotion is fading
There! You stay watching
My life is grinning
At my own demise


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2005 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Dr. S. Ali Wasif

Nocturnal Emission

(Instrumental INTRO – 1 minute)
(Music stops)
(Piano and Strings w/o drums)

Tell me,
Is this fair?
Confined to a box
Every Sunday morning
The bat outside the window
More than one inside my mind
The angel has fallen down
Now, the stranger makes the rules

(Piano, Guitar and Bass w/o drums)

“Tell me”,
She smartly asks me
Defiling my innocence
Speechless, I stay with
Abraham in my head
And, the devil in my bed
The wind from the east is never coming
So, I’ll stay here being afraid

(Drums begin)

This head is filled with mystic themes
Leaving me with my shrieking screams

Eyes pierce the air
In despair
We repeat the lines again
Down on our knees
Trying to feel the breeze
Falling into the
Garden of Eden

Nocturnal emission
Thought control
They read my mind
And, discuss my palm

I feel discomfort
I feel inebriate
This drive is uncertain
And, it’s driving me crazy

I’m living the mystic theme
Is this a nightmare? Or, is this a dream?
Shame and sadness
Adding to this misery

“Hi, I am (beep). I am here due to my disease, a condition.
A disease that everyone has but don’t admit to.
A longing for that something extra. Materialistic pleasure
is quite fatal. Be happy with what you have. The more you seek,
the more deeper into trouble you get into. I need less but I want more.” (spoken)

(Music stops)

“And, this is normal”

(Piano and Guitar w/o drums)

Reaching for the floor
Gaping at the rood
I search for understanding
I am not allowed to speak
I’ve become a refuge
To this colourful fantasy
Should I light another candle
To fear these demons away

(Drums begin)
(Instrumental – 2 minutes)
(Drums stop)
(Strings + Piano only)

Another Sunday morning
My skin is inside out
Visions in my head, and I’m mourning

(Drums and Guitars begin)

A delicious book to read
Is with me, in my hand
This conscience is lost to quicksand
It’s a shame for me to pray now
As I am

Bleeding in resentment

I risk salvation
By bleeding
I escape isolation
By bleeding

(Guitar solo + Instrumental – 4 minutes)

I tell the box to
Rid me off my dark actions
And, the voice tells me
These desires are in my mind
So, I still hear to them
But, I shall never listen

(Drums stop)
(Strings + Piano only)

This drive is quite certain
Still, it drives me crazy
Tell me, is this fair?
Isn’t this normal?


Copyright © Ajey Padival 2009 (Brisbane, Australia; +61-434360675; ajeypadival@msn.com)

Image by Ajey Padival