Knowingly unknown

As I clear my shoulders off my greying hair,
I feel more like a loner amongst these duos
I vacate to locate someone similar but find rings on all’s fingers
A glance and I‘m instantly shook, is it you?
Been eighty four months and we meet here?!

Do you recall the times we spent together? I know, I do
Do you miss the times we spent together? I surely do
Do you want to get back together? I do
Do you want to be together forever? I surely do

Incomprehensible is this resistance, this hesitance,
Pushing me away from you now
We see, but don’t seek an opportunity to speak,
Several pending things to talk about but we choose to linger
How are you? Umm, where have you been? You haven’t changed.
Blue still looks good on you
I believe you too have the same things to ask and say as well
Show me a sign, even a sigh to acknowledge. At least feign it to me.
Ah! You haven’t changed
We need to open up but still remain unopened
You wipe and sip on your empty glass
And, I sub-consciously nod amidst the mass
As we still see each other, umm, do we?

Now, do you recall the times we spent together? I know, I do
Do you miss the times we spent together? I surely do
Do you want to get back together? I do
Do you want to be together forever? I surely do

As usual let me start, I never lied back then, I hope you remember
I could never forget the way you stood up haven misunderstood
Probably, you should have bothered to ask
No! probably, I should have bothered to justify
I only wanted the best for you; you know that, don’t you?
I wonder about my past with you
You tell me; was I beside or aside you?
I need some zest to clear this off my chest
But I just cannot utter, being assiduous, I guess
I am mouthful of questions yet speechless

Do you recall the times we spent together? I know, I do
Do you miss the times we spent together? I surely do
Do you want to get back together? I do
Do you want to be together forever? I surely do

It has been hours and we still stay eager but unwilling to speak
Knowingly unknown is how we continue this activity
If you are, then avoid the shyness, is it privacy we seek?
Behaving so insults our affinity, don’t you realize?
Let’s stop us involuntarily drawing circles
This mute, worthless, restless obnoxious gap between us must be filled
This wide lacuna of vehemence truly needs expressing
This space now seems like the horizon, don’t you think?
Unable to withhold myself, I decide to stop this perjuring amidst us
I stand up as you look towards me
But, not at me
And I am eclipsed...

I: Excuse me...
He: Yes?
She: Err... Hi, this is my husband

It is all about you and nil about me, yet again
Remember? I plucked off the thorns but you complained of it missing
Remember? I burnt to lit the path you went pass and never complained
I wanted to fill the gap which you just closed
I recalled and missed the times we spent together
I wanted to get back and be together forever
Surely, I did. Surely, you did not.

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